Feelings

Feelings

Love... Jealousy... Hate...

They change hearts...lives...future...

These three feelings are definitely the most powerful things in the world....not money, not any material things.

Today, I have dealt with them. The three of them clashing in me...crushing the inside of me.

Now, whether I like it or not, I'm gonna deal with them...no choice leaves me to face them before I complicate everything...

Why now? Not now...

It's really ironic....

After several years of courting, he'd just backed off. That's it... The end...

Now I feel what they are always saying.... that love could be painful as hell...

Before, this sounded rubbish... nonsense...

Now, this sounds...I don't know. Maybe I'm the one who is being irrational... stupid... silly...

If I just didn't take him for granted. If I only said yes...

That's eight years he's been around me... Wooing me...loving me...

What I've been thinking... If I only expressed what I feel for him...

Now he's gone. He's now tired with me. He's now with her...

And that thought alone kills me... burning me like hell...

I just don' know what to do next... to say next...

What will I be when we meet? I just couldn't know what to do...
Damn, I feel like crying, anxious, hateful...
Please, give me another chance. I wanna be with you...

If only he could wait...
If only I didn't let him wait...